The book “ For This Life Only” written by Stacey Kade is deeply describing how unexpected and horrible accident can change the person’s and family’s life.  Throughout the story there is a common theme of how important it is for a family to help, understand and be open with each other, as well as being together, especially through the hardest times of their life. In my opinion, this realistic novel includes a lot of philosophical and psychological aspects and themes.

Nobody ever could expect that one winter evening could change Jacob (Jace) Palmer’s life forever. That day was when the main hero of this book, Jace asked his twin brother Eli to pick him up from his friend’s party and drive him home. On a way to their house, while they had conversation, Ely suddenly loses control of the car and crashed, “… Jeep rolled, turned our world upside down…”. Jace was dead for three minutes followed by couple months of struggling for his life and a lot of surgeries, he tried to get back to his normal life but now without his identical twin brother Eli, who died in the car accident that horrible night. Now Jace must learn, how to live and struggle, not just with his physical pain, but also with his emotions, feelings, and pain that he keeps inside of himself, “…Wake up. Take more pills…Try not to think… It was difficult for me to step back into a life that was all sharp edges and no soft landing places, a life that no longer left like mine-that didn’t matter…”  Throughout the story we see how Eli’s death impacts people and friends surrounding him, especially his family and his little sister. Also, there is a deep conflict inside the family, more so because their father is Pastor, who often helps to solve other people’s problems, sometimes caring for them more than his own family, particularly now when they need him the most. Jacob’s family is falling apart, arguing a lot, feeling guilty, blaming each other about Eli’s death, and everybody tried to avoid the conversation dealing with it. Thankfully, Jacob met a good friend, Thera (even if she was weird and he ignored her before), who helped him to organize his thoughts, fears and feelings, by listening and talking with him about it.

Through this story a lot of different questions arise about the life, expectations, difference between right and wrong, many religious questions, and afterlife (if it’s exist), but only a few answers. This is a well written story, because while you read this book you are totally immersed and feel the characters’ emotions, worries, fairs, grief, and relationships. Personally I think it’s really sad story, and it has many curse words, which is why I would recommended this book for high schoolers and young adults, who like this type of books.

Review by M.M.